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A chinga chong, a chinga chong! CHEA! AYO! Its wild for the night. Madukie gone! Rah rah gone! Hating ass Eason....he gone! Fidddddducccckkkk what you know about my duke. Living like a king out this mug. Call up them biddies and see about it. What's really good? Nah chill with that because I might catch a one for two if that was the case. Uh, I not really alone. The nameless dog aka young Duke around here making messes. Me in my drawls with my chest out ready to knock a bottom out or some' ish like that. Too fresh? Eh whatever, I'm too live to lay down right now. Too live to get in the winks because of work. Those S.O.B.s can slob...nah I'm messing. Ah ha! Mayne I'll walk around this mug butt ass naked if I wanted to right now. That's just how free it be. Light a few in the airerrr. Air. But I don't hit the L's no more. Nah. I be on some grown person ish. Have been for a cool warm minute now. Look me up in a minute. As it stands uh I don't need to head back to that Motown. Say whaaaaaaa? I said I don't need to head back to that Motown. Word? Wordie my duke.
Its weird being home, settled for uh a good minute. Not moving about. Don't get me wrong, I digs a little travel here and there but true right. I need to ease back and take care of that bidness. What was it I was explaining? Right, true. Having the place to myself and being stationary. As the story unfolds, uh the building and planning for that project back in Detroit goes underway, I get sent back to work on some other ish. Charity begins at home. Preliminary plannings and surveying went down, and all that good ish. Which whatever concerns and set backs doesn't involve me so I get to work on some other ish. Not too sure what it is directly but soon it might be big. Who knows. I get pizaid either way, digit skillet? Ayo check. Uh my wheels...the one that I reported stolen? Uh it wasn't necessarily stolen. Uh well insiders who know me, including one I won't name, ganked my ish. The end result? MY BABY IS EFF'N SOUPED UP! CHEA! Watch me stunt off on my mofos. Woooooo boy, you see them wheels ock? I took that ish for a spin before the snow hit and kilt them with the shine. Mad shine, ock. Guess who I have to thank to that? I could be mad as a rude boi should but other ish made up for it.
» P R I V A T E » Its one hunnert percent official now. Saying that might make me sound wrong but ish we was doing was wrong in a sense. I mean you know how it was on the low. Not uh...it was different. Not the physical deal but on a level where, damn. I'm going in that lame ass direction but homegirl know what it is. Thing that killed me was ol' boy couldn't have seen it when it had been wide open. I mean ish was weird as it was but we moved through it. Now, sad to say it, dude is gone. That was a blow since you hearing your main biddie's hubby did what he did and isn't breathing. Like was homeboy thinking about his family? The little shorty he left behind? I can say for sure that ish was getting real difficult to deal, like am I being set up for that ache, my boys was telling me about or was this it? Was she going to be strong enough to leave dude knowing from the ish I knew? I don't know if I could have put myself through that tug. Then I seen from what time was spent how in a way I kept her grounded. My own fam was on my side like yo, this is you. This you, dawg? Chea it is me right now. That's all me. I guess just sitting back letting ish remain confusing wouldn't do much. I did think on keeping her at bay so she could grieve and such but what kind of friend would I have been if I pushed her off compeletly when heads was giving her a different type of treatment? Nah so I chilled out, been there when she didn't want to speak to no one.
Thing that killed me was her spoken fear of driving me to my grave. I mean she is a bit uh...different to deal with and I knew the ish we were getting into anyways. Her strife is mine, vice versa. That's how its suppose to be. Being as the man I am, I finally came correct with it. She needed that and I can't give her what she dealt with for years. Nah, but I could give her else. Some ish she won't be disappointed in. Word. I'm not denying that this woman is special to me, digit? Like if it weren't so, think I would have waited like I did? Be patient and deal? I don't know what other brotha would be on the ish I was in. Though we mad it clear on being there when life wanted to drop us on our domb. Chea situations were different but that's not the point. She knows what love I got for her and the other way. All those months a year later? Psh. Can't tell me nothing and it goes beyond what's on the outside. Now I just have to face her madukes since she probably not believing it. Or can't understand it. She caught me creep out the girl's room on numerous occasions but that's not the point. The point is in everyone, not including our peoples but those on the outside knowing. I don't say much now and keep it how it always has been. But I don't care no more. Chea thinking about this ish got me on a different wave. » E N D »
My stomach growling hard, mayne. I could yell in the condo and be like AYO, MAKE ME A SANDWICH WOMAN! but I'd get threatened with ten thousand types of violences. I just know it but uh, I need to skip off here before my guest gets tight about my absence. I'm telling you, its the dimples. Dimples and eyes. Don't get caught slipping, playa. Your biddie might end up on the team just like that. Ah ha! Ayo let me stop and chill. Let me go and make me a sandwich before I ease on off. I'm gone.
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